First Save Myself
Posted: September 25, 2011 Filed under: Creativity, Parenting, Spirituality, Thoughts 2 Comments »
Over the course of the past month I’ve been having an interesting discussion with you, my readers, and myself. It’s been about change, questions, the status quo, and the desire to leave well enough alone. I’m not sure I even know how to do this.
My 9th Great-Grandfather (Roger Williams) was so unhappy with the way things were in Boston, that he left (actually, he was thrown out), and after living in the wilderness for awhile, he founded Providence, Rhode Island. His story is an amazing tale of sacrifice, ostracism, and loneliness.
My 6th Great-Grandfather (John Corbly), on the other side of my family tree, was a pioneer church planter who also paid high dearly for his vision – his family was killed by Native Americans trying to defend their territory in the Ohio Valley. Read the rest of this entry »
Visionary, Perfectionist, OCD, or Control Freak?
Posted: September 24, 2011 Filed under: Parenting, questions, Thoughts 7 Comments »
After my last post, and some choice comments, I’ve been wondering why I just can’t leave well enough alone? Why can’t I just keep my head down, mouth shut, and avoid eye contact? To stop trying to make a difference – at this point in my life – seems like defeat.
So, it got me to thinking. Maybe I’m a control freak? Maybe the reason I try to change things is because I have control issues. Maybe I’m OCD – maybe I can’t leave well enough alone? Maybe I’m a perfectionist that can’t ignore less than perfect circumstances? Or maybe I’m a visionary, who sees things others can’t (or won’t) see, and wants to help people see the light? Read the rest of this entry »
Estranged
Posted: September 6, 2011 Filed under: Parenting, Spirituality, Thoughts 2 Comments »
A few years ago I was burned out, tired, exhausted, and only slightly depressed. It was not a good time. I had given my heart and soul to my life’s mission, and now I was paying the price. I get that, but apparently others didn’t.
In the midst of that process, I grew cranky, directive, and not all that pleasant to be around. That is no one’s fault but my own. I most likely needed a sabbatical, some counseling, and some good down time. Unfortunately, none of that was available. Well, we did take a five-week vacation, but that actually hurt my reputation with my employer and job. Indeed, I made some mistakes and lost some very dear friends in the process. And before I had an opportunity to repair the damage, we were transferred.
