Adolescents and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil
Posted: December 31, 2011 Filed under: Parenting, Spirituality, Thoughts 2 Comments »
I remember being 19. It was heady. I knew everything, had no fear, and I saw life as full of opportunity. I was anxious to explore freedom and couldn’t wait to get away from the chains that held me back. I actually thought I was smarter than everyone else. I was not open to advice, and I couldn’t wait to make my mark. My only restriction, as I saw it, was money. If I just had a good cash flow, I would slay any dragon put before me.
Now, 30 years removed from that time, I’m watching someone I love very much make decisions based on a similar worldview. I am grieving the future loss of his innocence.
When I was 19, I knew I could try out some of my dreams, and if they didn’t work out, I’d just step back into my old life and continue on as if nothing had changed. The problem with that thinking? Everything changed.
Over the course of the next five years of my life, by the time I was 25, I had acquired experiences that changed me forever; I was enveloped by addictions that I still wrestle with, and some of my actions disqualified me for some of my current dreams. I can’t go back, I can’t go home again, and because of those few years of my life, I’m no longer innocent. I’ve tasted the forbidden fruit – and I’ll never be the same.
”disobedience and lack of trust that changed her”
Surrender, part 3
Posted: December 16, 2011 Filed under: God Encounters, Spirituality, Thoughts 4 Comments »
Sometimes – usually – it is outside of our control.
In fact, almost everything in my life is outside of my control. And yet, I have this incredible need to feel like I have some input. But I don’t.
My schedule, my travel, even when I am awake or asleep – all of these are influenced by various people and entities. All of these require some form of compromise, communication, and cooperation.
About the only thing I actually can do on my own, is rearrange the icons on the desktop of this computer.
Don’t Stop Believin’
Posted: April 14, 2010 Filed under: Parenting, Spirituality, Thoughts 2 Comments »Yesterday I was exploring some ring-tones for my phone, and like always I was drawn back to hits from the 80s. It is amazing how quickly a familiar song can take me back in time. It is a metaphysical experience that not only changes the clock, but the place. That’s what happened when I stumbled on this old favorite.
As just a snippet of this song played on my phone, I suddenly found myself driving my 280zx on the twisting, starlit roads of Scholls Ferry Road south of Hillsboro. The amber glow from the dashboard illuminating my attitude as Steve Perry filled my soul with hope.
