Friday morning the desperation crept over me like a dark, slime mold. Slowly, insidiously, and very powerfully, the desperation and hopelessness enveloped me. It started during a conversation with my Wonderful Wife, when I began to realize our plan was not coming together well. As we met with our counselor later that afternoon, the breakdown of the plan came into even more stark reality. By that night, I felt as if I were suffocating.
A few days ago, a pastor friend of mine asked a question on Facebook:
“Question: When you need to build hope in your life, what do you do? What works best?”
My reply was simple – “I’ve never been able to ‘build’ hope – only surrender to it.“
The problem being, it is difficult to truly surrender. I want to fix this. I want to be a part of the solution. I want to know what the plan is.
So, today, I will let go.
By the way, here is the excellent presentation Marc put together on this topic: