For the past couple of years I’ve beentrying to put it all into focus. Putting the political, employment, social, and spiritual issues into perspective has been a struggle. In my mind, the spiritual trumps the others, but apparently that isn’t true for everyone and every organization. So, as I sought to understand the motives, compared to my own, and weighing those against my mistakes, and others, I was confused.
In talking to some friends yesterday, I realized that it was a lot like trying to make sense of a sudden, unexpected, and tragic death. Not only is there the grief, but the big “why?” question also. It is hard. Not that the loss of a job is anywhere near the loss of a close family member, but I think you get what I’m trying to say.
” Thanks for bearing with me.”
As I’ve been able to better understand the mismatch of priorities, I believe I can lay this to rest. I now understand the Church doesn’t stand for what I thought it did. This helps me to accept it for what it is.
I was stuck, but at least I feel peace right now.
Some of you may wonder why I ever wrote about this stuff on a blog supposedly about being a man with a Dad Attitude. It’s a good question – but it all has to do with learning to deal with hardship, pushing through the barriers, and not passing on resentment, anger, grief, and depression to my kids. Thanks for bearing with me.
“It is what it is.”