After my last post, and some choice comments, I’ve been wondering why I just can’t leave well enough alone? Why can’t I just keep my head down, mouth shut, and avoid eye contact? To stop trying to make a difference – at this point in my life – seems like defeat.
So, it got me to thinking. Maybe I’m a control freak? Maybe the reason I try to change things is because I have control issues. Maybe I’m OCD – maybe I can’t leave well enough alone? Maybe I’m a perfectionist that can’t ignore less than perfect circumstances? Or maybe I’m a visionary, who sees things others can’t (or won’t) see, and wants to help people see the light?
I’m not sure – but I do know that I’m not very satisfied with how things often work out.
“It is hard for me to remain silent in the face of injustice, hypocrisy, or mediocrity”
And then there’s the idea that someone needs to speak up – like my friend Angie posted recently:
“I often hear people say, ‘I didn’t want to say anything because I didn’t feel like it would make a difference.’ Yet, how are you going to make a difference if you don’t use your voice? Remember–your voice is as valid as anyone’s!”
It is hard for me to remain silent in the face of injustice, hypocrisy, or mediocrity. Maybe I’m getting old, but it seems like it is just too much work anymore. I want to be able to leave well enough alone, and stop making waves – but it is in my nature. The problem is, people don’t seem to appreciate ideas, vision, or change – even when they are needed.
And yet, it’s who I am.