2 Samuel 19:1-8
1 Joab was told, “The king is weeping and mourning for Absalom.” 2 And for the whole army the victory that day was turned into mourning, because on that day the troops heard it said, “The king is grieving for his son.” 3 The men stole into the city that day as men steal in who are ashamed when they flee from battle. 4 The king covered his face and cried aloud, “O my son Absalom! O Absalom, my son, my son!”
5 Then Joab went into the house to the king and said, “Today you have humiliated all your men, who have just saved your life and the lives of your sons and daughters and the lives of your wives and concubines. 6 You love those who hate you and hate those who love you. You have made it clear today that the commanders and their men mean nothing to you. I see that you would be pleased if Absalom were alive today and all of us were dead. 7 Now go out and encourage your men. I swear by the LORD that if you don’t go out, not a man will be left with you by nightfall. This will be worse for you than all the calamities that have come upon you from your youth till now.”
8 So the king got up and took his seat in the gateway. When the men were told, “The king is sitting in the gateway,” they all came before him.
Though I’ve always viewed David as a sanguine, I see am acting very melancholic in this story. Feeling sorry for himself, not wanting to lead, not caring about what others want, need, or see. But his friend and colleague, Joab, like always, brings the hard truth to him. David responds and does what he must – though it is not what he feels.
How many times have I sought to do what I feel, even though it doesn’t agree with my calling?
U2 has a song that talks about being “Stuck in a Moment.” That is what often happens to me. Whether it be nostalgia, depression, grief, vision, perfectionism, opportunity, woulda/coulda/shoulda – or whatever. Being stuck in a moment is very different from living in the moment.
Living in the moment requires a dynamic approach to feelings and actions. Being stuck in a moment allows me to wallow in the past (nostalgia, depression) or future (vision, perfectionism). Wallowing seems easier, but it is a pleasure that takes its toll. Being dynamic to the current situation, seems like it will take more work, but in reality will allow for greater serenity and courage.
Father God, Lord Jesus, Holy spirit,
We don’t talk much about living in the moment within Christianity. It seems to be a Zen thing – something talked about in the Eastern Mystical Religious practices – but isn’t this what you were talking about in Matthew 6? “Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you.” “Think not about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself?”
Please help me to practice the spiritual discipline of living in the moment.
Thanks God – I love you too!