Mark 15:10 — (For he (Pilate) realized by now that the leading priests had arrested Jesus out of envy.)
Envy is an interesting emotion. It is a cousin to pride and jealousy. It is closely related to insecurity. The American Heritage Dictionary describes envy: “A feeling of discontent and resentment aroused by and in conjunction with desire for the possessions or qualities of another.” A synonym to envy is covet. Hmmm… I think the 10 commandments speak to this.
Resentment, desire, insecurity, jealousy, pride, coveting — what could the High Priests possibly want that Jesus had. Was it His simple lifestyle? Was it humble upbringing? Could it be His itinerant schedule? I doubt it. What they wanted was the admiration of the people. They wanted the power and recognition that Jesus had. They were afraid they were losing control of the people and they were insecure about that.
The way to obtain what another has — especially when it comes to respect, affirmation, and leadership is not to demean or debase the other person (or entity), rather it is to rise to the challenge and become what God has called me to be.
Sometimes, I’m not called to be #1. Sometimes, I’m not supposed to be the best. Sometimes, I am. My goal, role, duty is to be obedient to God’s leading on a daily, if not moment by moment, basis. If I am obedient to Him — all will be good.
I am part of the body. It is not my job to be the head. I am to do what he tells me to do — and the rest is up to God.
Dear God, thanks for taking care of the little things so I don’t have to. Please keep teaching me how to be obedient. I can’t worry about who has more influence or control 0r a larger congregation. I just have to move forward under his leadership and direction.
I surrender to you today God and I am sorry for the envy, jealousy, and fear I have exhibited in the past. Please forgive me Lord and make me more like you! Give me the security that comes from being obedient!
Thanks God, I love you too!