Isaiah 55:1,2,6 (NLT)
1“Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink—even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk—it’s all free! 2Why spend your money on food that does not give you strength? Why pay for food that does you no good? Listen, and I will tell you where to get food that is good for the soul! 6Seek the LORD while you can find him. Call on him now while he is near.
In the popular vernacular, time is money. So, replacing the words in the text, I can see myself spending time on “food that does no good.” I spend my time on things that actually rob my strength. It can even be a video game that takes time, TV, pointless reading, or even food that decreases my alertness and strength. Many things decrease my forward momentum. I need to be focused on the “one thing” that sharpens me and prepares me to receive the abundant life.
In fact, when I play an intense video game, I am robbed of vital energy. I often am left with nervous energy that is distracting and anxiety producing. Other things leave me dopey — or ashamed. They feel good at the time, but leave me further down than I was. The same can be said for certain foods or eating habits.
I need to be better disciplined. I want to seek God — I am not opposed to this. It is just that I first seek my own selfish, humanistic desires and these leave me weak and nearly unable to seek God.
The food leaves me groggy. TV leave me wanting more of its pabulum and I don’t desire the peace of God. Many other things leave me ashamed or drain me and this makes it harder to seek real-life engagement. All of these things lead to hedonistic desires and into vicious cycles of late nights, procrastination, slow mornings, and a life of downward spirals.
It is only through discipline that I can escape the downward spiral and truly begin to seek God.
Father God, please rescue me from this abysmal cycle of feeding on my own desires. I believe that you alone are my salvation — but please help my lack of faith. Please Lord, I turn my will over to you and ask for salvation from you alone.
“…no man can empty himself of self. We can only consent for Christ to accomplish the work. Then the language of the soul will be, Lord, take my heart; for I cannot give it. It is Thy property. Keep it pure, for I cannot keep it for Thee. Save me in spite of myself, my weak, unchristlike self. Mold me, fashion me, raise me into a pure and holy atmosphere, where the rich current of Thy love can flow through my soul.” COL 159